Happy

Do you ever have one of those days,you know, the kind of day where you just want to curl up in a ball and sleep.  Forget this crazy world...forget the stresses and just sleep away peacefully!  My day is a little like that.  I keep telling my hubby, I think I am sick.  I feel tired and nauseated!  No, I am not preggers, I promise you.  Fatigue is settling in.  After my three 12 hour days last weekend I just can't seem to kick it!  I am praying and trying to focus on the good things in life.  To be a strong mother is one of my biggest wants in life and a major need for Carsen.  Sometimes, I am okay with not being the strongest, ONLY if I can pick myself back up again and push through these aweful feelings.  Today, in between waves of nausea, I am enjoying my little boy.  He knows when I work long days.  He is starting to show me that he wants me and needs me.  It is a very nice feeling.  To be wanted.  After working a late night last night, getting little sleep, and getting up early for therapy at home, I complete my to do list by the time Carsen's special ed teacher rings the doorbell.  He loves, loves, loves Judy.  AND I love when he is happy.  Today is not a happy day for him which is fine.  She distracts him through a whole hour of fun games and bubble machines.  I have never witnessed a person work so hard at their job in my life.  I would think by the time one is in their 50's they would just settle for the "usual" ways to teach a child with special needs.  Not Judy.  She continues to find ways JUST FOR CARSEN.  Do you realize how good that makes me feel.  Somebody cares enough to put added stress in their one hour with Carsen.  To describe it all is difficult, as are most things in our life.  I am tellin ya, we are a blessed family to have Judy in our life.  My little boy shows me he wants up and wants to be held by me which is just fine by me.  He is needing me right now and I am needing his cuddles and hugs.  This makes me happy.

On Sunday he gave a kiss to a family friend that doesn't get the chance to see him very much.  Something about her beauty made him think at that split second..."she needs a kiss!"  I was so proud that he was giving kisses to other people and so proud that he can show love, even when we least expect it.  This makes me happy.

Today, we have cuddled our morning away.  We rocked in our chair with Carsen's fav blankie and sang every song I could come up with.  I am the world's BEST singer!  (To Carsen that is!)  He smiles and smiles at the silly words and high pitch notes I struggle reaching.  This makes me happy.

I was so happy to have 10 friends and their 6 kids over for supper on Sunday.  I truly believe that having close friends and the kids over is one of the most important things in life.  To celebrate life and our friendships.  Listening to the kids having dodgeball fights, playing with ALL the toys in the house, digging for worms, playing bocce ball, riding toys and watching them all enjoy eachother's company was more than a blast.  I feel so blessed to have such awesome friends in my life.  This makes my soul happy.

The sunshine, rain, a planted garden completed, a 7 mile tempo run, leftover calico beans, a husband that cleans the whole kitchen after our friends leave, a clean house, a house filled with fun, a clean house again, a red shiney gait trainer, a sister just a phone call away, buster bar dessert and windows open during the day are making me happy this week. 

What are the little things in your life that are making your week go better?

I think every mother has challenges in their life that seem too difficult to manage.  A mother with true strength is one that is able to accept the challenges, pick oneself up and focus on the good.  We all do it.  It takes more time to get back up sometimes.  But those positive, happy things in our life pull us forward and back on track.

There is nothing more beautiful than my bleeding hearts!

(My computer crashed and have finally been able to get my photos backed up...this post is a few weeks old but wanted to put some pics with it!)